This what happen when I'm alone ~

When I'm alone like now , there's must sooo many things I will think off , why I'm alone ,seems everybody neglecting me ... harsh without a reason why . I like to write my feelings over something rewritable , but at some point I don't think its good to be read for . How I wish I can express my loneliness like this . It's so frustrating when you know you lost it for sure , and it will be never be the same as you want it to be . :(

         

This is the feeling that I really don't want to feel for along time . LOOSING . Its hard . Sometimes , I wonder , do my friends really like to be with me , or just be friend with me because didn't want me to look like fool . One of my friends said . "You not gonna die , if you don't have friends here , be who you are" ... It's hard to be this lonely at the moment . Something just don't in the right position . Miss my old friend .

Tired of being somebody else , act like anyone else . Please understand me , please accept me for who I am . Sometimes , in relationship I'm the one who begging for understanding . TIRED of being this SHIT . 
Am I that bad to be with ?

Need A Key Of a Friends

To be honest , this is what happen when I'm alone , writing bout nothing , I wonder , did anyone read this ? 
Whoever you are ... 

Just keeping my self together with this quotes . 
"Don't afraid of goodbye , you may loose something good , but you might also gain something BETTER (#simplelovetweet)"
 

Just thinks .

People now a days just can't stand to one thing only in their life . Sucks ! My life in university started with a really bored journey and hard one . Got to know new people . Its hard . You know ? , in the same time missing your old friends at high school and what so ever . What a life . Need to continue no matter how hard it is . Some people said you just have to face rather run form it . Hard tho . 

I like to write things , but I really have no idea what to write and in the same time I dun think there would be a person who know about this blog . Its sucks to be me . Wondering , how hard people that live in difficulties like in war , what are they thinking bout others , what they thinking bout the world today , are they even know what going on ? Just wonder ...

Hard too say , how about the people that don't have any family members , what are they thinking , about others . This is the thing that always keep my thoughts busy as ever ... Just wonder . What , How , Is it ?

Stupid Boy ..

These guys juz bein cool n be my new friend .
He lyk really cool guy .
Sweet 
charm
n wat so ever to become a dreamy boy .
n when he come along my best friend in the world really fall for him !
n wat should i do ?? He lyk catty , but my bestfriend lyk him soo much deep onside her heart !! 
n me .. im afraid to fall for him .
he's not really talkin to el .. instead he talkin to me .. n dat is juz sucks ! 
im so really freakin happy around him ..
but when i see my two bestfriend is really lyk .. i dunno wat to say anymore !
catty lyk other guy . 
me in the middle of the situation is really make me stress .. help me ..